Today is World Mental Health Day, and in the interest of transparency and authenticity, I thought I would share a brief account of my own mental health struggles.
I recognise that many people may be unaware of the journey I took to get to where I am today. If any of this resonates with you in any way, or you need support, please reach out, whether to me, or to someone close to you.
At the age of 22 I was diagnosed with mild depression and briefly saw a psychologist which didn’t help as I didn’t feel comfortable with them. Then when I was 28 I hit a really bad patch and was put on anti depressants and given CBT treatment on the NHS (this didn’t resonate with me at all). The medication did help me to function (i.e. to actually get out of bed) but I just felt numb – no down but no up either.
At the lowest point this involved me pretty much locking myself in my hotel room in Chiang Mai, drinking too much and surviving mainly on cookies for about 2 weeks. I only ventured out at night to go to 7-11 for the food and alcohol. I lost a lot of my sense of self, I didn’t really care about anything, let alone myself.
I kept to myself a lot so my friends or family didn’t really know what I was going through. I also put on a lot of weight during this period due to medication and eating for comfort.
Over the following months I managed to ween myself off anti depressants and started doing things that made me feel good (learning silversmithing and reading and cooking). I also discovered past life regression and reading around this was one of the things that really helped me – seeing the bigger picture if you like.
I was ok again until about 2013 when relationship issues sparked my depression again, and at that point I sought help privately from an NLP and EFT specialist who was also a hypnotherapist. Two sessions with this guy and I had big shifts and was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I hit a small rocky patch the following year when an accident left me with PTSD but with the information I had learned from my previous therapist and reading and doing a lot of personal development I was able to get through it.
Since then I have been on an upward trajectory of growth and happiness and so much so that 3 years ago I retrained in the tools that helped me. I now have tools and techniques to keep me on a positive vibration and I make sure I live what I teach. Some of the tools that have helped me are:
- Abraham Hicks videos are amazing at helping you to find out why things aren’t going the way you want them to
- Louise Hay’s work is phenomenal on learning to love yourself
- Shamanism and connecting to a higher sense of purpose gave me a sense of space, and
- Contributing to humanity and helping others is what rewards me on a daily basis
You’re not alone. And there is light at the end of the tunnel. I promise.